I am a happy person, a love lifer, a giver, a spontanious nut. Where has she gone? Why has my life changed so in the past 3 years? Tis maybe the season of my true strength as a human walking like so many others.
In times of great struggle which I have had the past few years, I miss hearing myself laugh, running off to whatever suits my fancy on a Sunday afternoon, enjoying a good book. I have had glimpses of those times the past few years, but doesn't seem as though there are enough to sustain my sanity.
When I think back of the glory days of being a mom with 5 little toddlers stepping on my feet and banging on pots and pans, I smile. Maybe I was overwhelmed then. When I think of those days I smile and remember them as my dream come true, and it was. Not to say it wasn't difficult, but they were alive, healthy and beautiful..... all of them. I still have 4 beautiful children, they are growing up too fast.
I am also learning of mothers that must live day to day with handicapped children of their own or worse like those on life support. God bless those mothers. God bless each and every one of them.
My life has had so many many twists and turns in the road. I have experienced so much and still I am learning so much more. It's as if I am seeing new lifestyles of different people and families through a different pair of glasses each year that I live. Most people I know haven't experienced half of what I have seen in this life. Maybe this means lucky me, or maybe my journey is just going to be a lucky one in the end. I will maybe somehow cherish my diverse life and treasure each and every joyous memory to the deepest of the deepest sadness. I will be privilaged to have worn and looked through so many pairs of glasses. Let's hope this may be my blessed way.